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Losing the Weight, Finding Myself: Week 11

Submitted by Bethany on Sun, 04/08/2018 - 16:34

No need to adjust your browser, I did in fact skip from week 8 to week 11.  That's because, shockingly, even when I don't sit down to write about my progress, the time passes anyway.  Who knew?  

I haven't been writing because I haven't been accomplishing what I want to accomplish.  My weight is stuck, on a plateau, samesies.  However you want to describe it, that scale is. not. budging.  My initial reaction is to whine and moan about my lack of progress and how much it sucks.  "But I'm trying so haaaard!" I cry in my head.  But when I really look at what's going on, I know that's not true. 

When I tell myself I'm working hard, what it really means is that I'm not getting to eat whatever I want.  When I'm not letting myself eat the pizza and pasta and cookies I'd love to stuff my face with every day, I want so much for that to be enough for the weight to fall off.  I am eating better than I have in a long time - more vegetables and protein, less carbs and sweets.  It's not that hard, it's mostly rather tasty, and I do for the most part feel better. 

But it's not enough.  What I've really switched to right now is a maintenance lifestyle.  I'm doing just enough to maintain my current weight, rather than gain, and this is what the scale is reflecting.  Now, if I were already at my goal weight, that would be great!  Unfortunately, I'm still 109 pounds away from my goal weight. 

So, I've decided to do something a little drastic.  I know, I know, it's not what you are supposed to do.  Crash diets don't work, you end up gaining back more than you lost, etc. etc.  But sometimes I think I really do need a jump start.  A swift kick in the pants.  Some momentum to get me going in the right direction.  And I've found in the past that I work fairly well when I have a strict list of dos and don'ts.  A diet I tried once a few years ago randomly showed up on my Facebook feed last week, and I'm gonna give it a go.  It worked well the last time, but then of course I wasn't serious about continuing the success. 

I'm gonna get scolded for this by people who know better.  Heck, I know better.  But I think it's worth a shot.  I'll blog more about it later, so for now you'll just have to stay tuned! 

XOXO, Bethany