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Losing the Weight, Finding Myself: Week 3

Submitted by Bethany on Sun, 02/11/2018 - 16:12

The scale moved ever so slightly in the right direction this week - I weighed in at 265.6.  Of course that was after being up since 2am losing my stomach contents from what I believe to be food poisoning.  I do hope it's not the dreaded norovirus, or worse, as Joel suggested, a side effect of the weight loss hypnosis session I attended Friday night.  (Read more about that here

The biggest thing I struggle with when it come to losing weight is working out.  No matter what I do I can't seem to find the time to fit it into my schedule.  Now, intellectually, in my head, I know that all the excuses I have are crap.  When I worked full time at a "real job" my excuse what that it was too early in the mornings before I went to work and I was too tired when I got home, so I just didn't have time.  I used to dream of the day when I would be working from home full time, and I could get up and workout with all the newfound free time I would have.  

When I first left my full time job last summer, we got in a fairly good routine of working out, but I felt like my business suffered for it.  By the time we went through a morning routine, worked out, cleaned up, and had lunch we were ready for a nap.  And after a nap it was late afternoon and basically and entire day had gone by without getting any real work done.  It was good for my waistline, but not for my wallet. 

So now that I try to focus on my business(es) and church stuff (again) and the blog, I get up, eat breakfast, start working and then all of a sudden it's lunch time so I scarf something down and then I keep working and all of a sudden it's time to go to a movie and I still haven't changed out of my pajamas (and my pajamas are really what I wore all day the day before) and oh well at least it's winter so no one really sees what I'm wearing under my big coat anyway so let's just go.  I do try to fix my hair and throw on some lispense so I look vaguely respectable. 

There has to be a happy medium.  I mean, I see other people do it all the time. In fact many others not only balance a job and working out they have kids thrown in the mix, too!  I feel like a failure that I can't seem to figure it out.  Or, perhaps, deep down, a part of me doesn't want to figure out.  In the summer of 2009 I lived at a monastery (an adventure I should write about in detail sometime), and one of my greatest takeaways from that experience was "you have time for what you make time for."  I know that I have time to workout and do all of my work well, I just haven't bothered to make the time for both yet.  That is going to be one of my biggest hurdles to overcome if I really want to make the weight loss stick this time. Well, the first step is admitting it, right?

So tell me, do you have a great way to fit working out into your daily routine?  Tell me how!  Please!  Are you like me, struggling to find the balance of it all?  Let's commiserate together!